Health anxiety sucks

This morning, over coffee, I saw a post on social media about people having aneurysms. Young people in their 20s aren't spared this horrible demise, never mind someone in their 30s or 40s.

This one article said 1/3 of the planet will, at one time or another, suffer from this. 1/3??!! What the hell.

So, of course, I spent the next hour "researching" the net about how to prevent this from happening. What foods to eat, what to do and not do, what symptoms to watch out for, etc.

Having health anxiety is so exhausting and debilitating.

The smallest thing can trigger me, like seeing someone battle cancer on TV (or even mentioning it in a conversation), or reading something online about an obscure disease, sends me into a panic.

I know I should get treated for this by seeing a therapist again and perhaps even taking medication.

I've been resistant to taking meds my whole life, though. I have a hard time taking something as simple as Advil, so considering taking Celebrex or whatever else they might prescribe scares me so much.

I wish I could just turn my brain off sometimes.